[BLOG] Just keep on going
primesuspect
Beepin n' BoopinDetroit, MI Icrontian
Three times tonight I made a decision to go forward instead of back. By the time I got back home, I realized I could have just kept walking. It's hard to tell because I took such a meandering route, but I'd estimate it was a normal 2.5-3 mile walk tonight.
One of the only things that pulled me back towards home was the freezing cold (yes, it's still cold here...) and the fact that it was Saturday night and there were a lot of rowdy people driving around. I had a weird feeling that something was gonna go down; I kept looking behind me, etc. People were acting weird. A car zoomed down 10 mile at 70mph or so, then slammed on their brakes, pulled into a parking lot and did a quick u-turn and sped off back the other way. I walked by a house with a rowdy party going on. From a distance I heard yelling and screaming. Things were just off tonight; not my normal "I am alone in the world" peace.
The rabbits were agitated too. They didn't like it. We want our night world back.
There was nothing really noteworthy about my train of thought tonight. I feel kind of distracted, kind of all over the place. Unfocused. Perhaps that's part of what kept me going; I didn't think about the things that normally bother me, like muscle pain or distance or what I did or didn't eat that day. I was just kind of in a random flickering thought state, my attention being drawn this way and that by various distractions.
I'll have these days, I suppose. I have a phrase that's kind of a mantra for me now: Keep walking until I can run. Keep running until I am back.
One of the only things that pulled me back towards home was the freezing cold (yes, it's still cold here...) and the fact that it was Saturday night and there were a lot of rowdy people driving around. I had a weird feeling that something was gonna go down; I kept looking behind me, etc. People were acting weird. A car zoomed down 10 mile at 70mph or so, then slammed on their brakes, pulled into a parking lot and did a quick u-turn and sped off back the other way. I walked by a house with a rowdy party going on. From a distance I heard yelling and screaming. Things were just off tonight; not my normal "I am alone in the world" peace.
The rabbits were agitated too. They didn't like it. We want our night world back.
There was nothing really noteworthy about my train of thought tonight. I feel kind of distracted, kind of all over the place. Unfocused. Perhaps that's part of what kept me going; I didn't think about the things that normally bother me, like muscle pain or distance or what I did or didn't eat that day. I was just kind of in a random flickering thought state, my attention being drawn this way and that by various distractions.
I'll have these days, I suppose. I have a phrase that's kind of a mantra for me now: Keep walking until I can run. Keep running until I am back.
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Last night was kind of a bizarre night as well. Quite a few odd noises around my house that aren't typically present. And people yelling and such. Something in the air I guess.